Monday, 27 April 2009

The Exeter Night Walk

Monday, 27 April 2009

This was the Exeter Night Walk to raise funds for the Exeter Leukaemia Fund and Macmillan Cancer Support. I was supposed to be doing this night before I went to work in Portugal…but unfortunately one of those [to me] silly red-tape problems reared it's irritating head. We had to Fill in a Form, Send off a Cheque, blah de blah. In advance.

I only discovered this last minute, but thought we may be able to register at the door, and pay there. Er - that would be a 'No'. Bah. So I didn't get to go. BUT, my friends Judi and Julie did! Here's some pics of them that I scarfed from the Express & Echo.

The article about how successful the walk was is here. I am now planning to do it next year, waving my form before me! :o)


Judi Spiers who launched the event;




Judi [left] and Julie [right] - I haven't quite worked out what they're actually doing here, but being Julie, it's bound to be something rather energetic!




Saturday, 25 April 2009

"I feel my brain is not my own" - this article makes me feel a LOT better!

After chemotherapy, patients can experience huge cognitive problems. For many, it's the last straw. Lucy Atkins reports;

The Guardian, Tuesday 21 April 2009

Susan Sontag likened hers to the symptoms of a stroke, while Kylie Minogue complained that it made her forget everything. Welcome to chemobrain or, less catchily, "cancer treatment-related change in cognitive function" - a widespread problem for cancer patients which, until recently, has been largely ignored by clinicians.

For many, it's the last straw after months of treatment. You might struggle to find the right word for an object or be unable to follow a fast-paced conversation. Or you might have trouble multitasking. You might even forget your own phone number. More than just irritating, these occurrences can shake your confidence, damage your career, upset your social and family lives and, in extremis, even put you in danger.

Joanne Redford, 37, was diagnosed with breast cancer when her second child was 10 months old. Through 18 months of chemotherapy, she stayed positive. But now, one year on, she says, "I feel like my brain is not my own. Socially, her confidence is at rock bottom. "I'm nervous about striking up a conversation with anyone new these days. I think, 'What if I forget what I'm talking about?'"

Until now Redford has told nobody about these symptoms - not even her husband. "I just try to cover it up," she says. "People think that because the treatment has finished, you are fine. That you feel lucky to be alive. They don't realise what you are still going through."

Not everyone who undergoes cancer treatment experiences chemobrain, although no official figures exist on what proportion of people are affected, and research into the causes is in its infancy. However, one of the most recent studies on the subject, according to Ellen Clegg, Boston-based author of a new and controversial book, Chemobrain: How Cancer Therapies Can Affect Your Mind, suggests that the problem could be the result of chemotherapy temporarily damaging the brain's ability to grow new cells (the progenitor cells). "Some doctors are looking at whether chemotherapy agents influence the blood-brain barrier [whereby chemicals or bacteria in the bloodstream cannot pass into the neural tissue], or actually cross it, causing damage to brain cells," she says.
Clegg believes that doctors in America do not tell patients about these theories because they, understandably, do not want to put people off life-saving treatments. Consequently, she says, there is widespread distress and confusion. "Patients wonder what is going on, when their hair grows back and fatigue abates, but a spaced-out feeling lingers."

The issue is starting to be taken more seriously in the medical arena, with new studies springing up worldwide. According to Emma Pennery, clinical director at Breast Cancer Care, awareness of the problem is growing among oncologists. Clegg puts this down to patients who are refusing to be fobbed off. "When patients ask to be heard and doctors listen," she says, "it can be transformative."

"Some doctors are investigating whether the cancer itself is causing chemobrain effects," says Clegg. "Certain cancers may release metabolic products that could cause these symptoms, or the symptoms could be part of the body's immune response to the cancer." Elsewhere, researchers are investigating whether the symptoms in women could be related to lowered oestrogen levels caused by chemotherapy. "It is very difficult to untangle contributing factors," says Pennery. "There are so many different types of cancer treatment and these can all cause stress, depression and profound fatigue, all of which can affect your memory, concentration and ability to focus."

Pennery says that women who call the Breast Cancer Care helpline often complain that doctors dismiss these symptoms, "or put them down to stress, depression, fatigue or the menopause." When they hear that there may be concrete physical causes, and that the condition usually abates a year or two after the chemo finishes, their relief is palpable.

Chemobrain ... How to cope with the effects:
• Discuss symptoms with your clinician or specialist care team – don't try to hide them.
• Get help with other supposedly "manageable" chemotherapy side-effects that can have a knock-on effect, such as night sweats, which disturb sleep, which in turn can reduce cognitive function.
• Stay organised. Use calendars or planners and write everything down.
• Take frequent breaks: divide tasks up, and rest each time you complete a part.
• Exercise your brain: do crossword puzzles and number games, take up a new hobby, or learn a new skill.
• Exercise your body: moderate exercise can help with stress, fatigue and depression.
• Hang on in there: studies show that symptoms lessen a year after chemotherapy and decrease even more two years on.

Saturday, 18 April 2009

OC badges

Saturday, 18 April 2009

These are cute - for the first time in ages I've found some nice ovarian cancer buttons. There a zillions of breast cancer things all over the place, but not so many OC things. So I thought I'd add this for those of you who are hunting for them. Nice work Farrah!

Click the link below to see her site, and the buttons can be downloaded for free.

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Friday, 17 April 2009

Last week part 01

Friday, 17 April 2009

AJ recently gave me the fright of my life. He casually showed me a couple of lumps that he’d noticed on his rib cage. Lumps?? What?! When he showed them to me, I felt physically sick. Hello hot flash and thoughts that don’t bear mentioning. And the worst thing was, I suddenly realised how HORRIBLE it has been for him, watching me go through all this cancer bullshit, and wondering if I would live or not, manage or not, cope or not - at the time I understood to a point, but as soon as there was something wrong with HIM, I really 'got it'. The worry. That sounds disgusting - as if what has happened to AJ is just affecting me…it’s not, but it certainly made me think. Cancer can make you quite thoughtless in some respects, and overly solicitous in others. It’s a stupid disease and blows your thought processes all to hell. Not to mention your memory! Well, that’s just shot.

Last year AJ had heart palpitations. They were from stress, and he had to have an ECG, as he kept waking up with a pounding heart, a dead or tingling arm and a feeling of panic. Poor thing – I know he hid a lot of his worry from me. Luckily he was fine once he knew what was going on, as he is also a strong person who takes control. But what our partners and family go through is sometimes harder than what WE go through. At least we make the choices and are in control [well, we think we are!]. I do sometimes wish I hadn’t had to tell anyone – but I do rather think they may have wondered about the bald head and bloated face! ;o)

For them, it must be agonising sometimes. Neither of us sleeps well any more, and I hate that I have caused that for him. Just typing this makes me cry. I would do anything for AJ not to have to worry so much. Just to have a normal wife who moans about normal everyday things…Grr. Bloody cancer has a lot to answer for I tell you what!! I wish I could grab it and beat the living daylights out of it!!!

Anyway, he went off for a sound scan and the doctors pronounced themselves 99% sure that they are 'fatty lumps' [charming! Lipoma actually] but he has a larger one deeper into his groin, which they couldn’t 'see' with the sound scan, so on Thursday he has to have an MRI scan to check it out. I am so stressed with this!!

But it was quite funny [in a black humour sort of way]. After the GP's appointment, AJ came home and told me he thought he had lymphoma. Lymphoma is an aggressive type of cancer...my eyes almost fell out…until I realised he meant Lypoma…men!! What are they like??

The word 'lump' just makes me feel like screaming blue murder after last year. AND of course, I am working in Portugal next week, so he will be alone. After him being there for me for every single little test, scan etc, it makes me feel horrible not to be here. Although he doesn't seem that concerned, I know he is worried too, as he is a bit claustrophobic. When I had mine, they just did my head and that was bad enough - ugh - all that banging!! Bah. Work. Grr. I am VERY glad to have a job, but sometimes it would be nice to have a normal 9 - 5 one!! Freelancing sucks sometimes.

Thursday, 9 April 2009

the Cancer Vixen clip [trying again!]



Love this image of her kicking cancers butt...quite tickles my fancy heh heh

Hmm, every time I tried to change the text uploaded from YouTube, the video review disappeared!

So, the witty clip is HERE!!! Take that YouTube! Grumble grumble...