And especially all you girls in the midst of chemo - all the girls I know OUT of chemo [and they're a lot!]. The people who follow this blog.
Well, I FEEL great. Like Wonder Woman - I'm not, but I feel like that, having survived [touch wood!] ovarian cancer for now. I am running about like a Blue Arsed Fly…fund raising and looking for work. And working! Doing mainly manual labour right now, gardening, cleaning, waiting on. And actually, I love it - it's helped me lose all the steroid weight, and I've met lots of people through it too. Yay - bring on networking!
The reason I feel like Wonder Woman is because I never thought I'd be able to do any of this. I was so weak and frail after chemo that I just felt that was it. I'd be 2 stone overweight and a weed for ever. Well, not so. Hoorah!
Plus I have a couple of graphic design jobs which keep me in touch and up to date with what I consider my 'real' work. Not that cleaning and gardening aren't - it's just that I suppose I am so used to being a graphic designer that it's hard to think of myself as anything else.
Regarding cancery stuff - I can honestly say that at the moment, I don't think about it an awful lot. I still do think about it - no brainer there. Hence this post. But not every second of every day. Mainly if something goes wrong - like today.
I have a horrible cold. It moved to my chest this morning so I was coughing like a grampus all day, which wrenched my stomach. Oops! Scarring doesn't like that and all afternoon I was nauseous. And there was pain on my left side where the adhesions were. Maybe there's still adhesion there - who knows? It's gone now, so who cares? But it's silly things like that that make you think stupid thoughts.
But the cough is going - and so are the thoughts…4 more months till I start going seriously bonkers ;)
Thank you so much for being strong for me and I know those 4 more months will fly by and so will those years! Here's to that cold getting its ass kicked by a woman who beat cancer and no more thinking stupid thoughts! Kick some more ass!)
ReplyDeleteYou go girl.. I enjoy your blog. Unlike you, I think of cancer all the time and pray and hope it doesn't come back to get me. I did the steriod weight too! (but I still have to take em to breath)so ya, I struggle with my weight.. scar tissue is a joke with me as well... when I get a cold I have to go on pain pills to cough it up or risk it getting stuck...You say weak.. I remember one day being dropped off from chemo, nobody was home, I flopped on my couch with my heavy fall like coat on and was still lying there eyes wide open when my kids got home from school... I was lucky ~ it didn't hit me hard til the end of treatment and I could upchuck with the best of em.. no stomach just a kinda "whoop there it is"... ! Oh well.. it is behind me .. I will be four years cancer free in Nov... So ya.. you EARNED THE STATUS QUOTE OF 'WONDER WOMAN' you wear it well...
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